'lil ole me.

Stagnant. That's what my life is feeling like right now. I guess here lately I have just been coming to the blog to relieve what's on my mind. Nothing is moving forward. There are no opportunities. My love life, spiritual life, and work life is at a stand still. And I mean still. I would think that this would be a nice breeze - as everything has finally slowed down. But it has always seemed to be such a whirl wind that this is not a comfort zone for me. I need something else...something more.

I try to think all day what I can do to change this...but nothing comes to mind. And I mean nothing. I want to come up with some miraculous plan - and nothing happens. I feel like it is just lil' ol me. Well, now that I think about it...it is just 'lil ol me.

hmmm.

My positive attitude a few weeks ago is at a fast decline. Roller-coaster fast. Just like when you top the big hill. You have just enough time to look around, take a breath, and then down you go! That's me.

What can I do to help myself. I need you to help me, help me.

Oh, I am partially done with my resume. I did NOT like the resume wizard...so I have done some constructing of my own. I like the format better at least. Now I just have to start from scratch...as my old resume is a gonner. Is that how you spell gone-er?

So, now I am plugging in skills that I have learned over the years. You would think that I would have gained some type of experience....I mean, I have had a steady job since I was 15...so now I am going on 9 years of some type of work.

Maybe that's why such a burn out and stagnation in my life. I need a vacation...and I mean a 6 month vacation.