Dreams: Narly or Nightmare

i hope everyones 4th of July holiday was sparkly. mine was great. i stretched my vacation time into 4 days. i was able to spend time with my family and friends...and also some one-on-one time with sunlight. i must say that i have a smashing tan :) i just hope it doesn't peel.

i am still eating barbeque leftovers. mainly because i have been spending my money friviously. i have no money at the end of the month...and can not (for the life of me) figure out where all my money is going. i could use the 'played out' statment that my gas tank is eating my money for breakfast. but truly, my mid-day stops to Kohls for some cute flipflops could be the show-stopper. its time to get serious people. i've got to get a handle on this.

as usual, i have large aspirations for myself. i want a new job that pays more money (significant), a cute apartment in Hoover, a boyfriend (well, not really), an engagement ring, and a house on the Virgin Islands that i can retreat to whenver i want. how am i suppose to make all my dreams come true. i'm tired of following my dreams. maybe i should go ahead and do what i want and then meet up with them when i'm ready :)

first step. i have dedicated 1 hour a night to the 'Operation Job Hunt.' I have only found and applied to 3 jobs that i want. all are in the marketing field. that was just yesterday and today. not a lot happening on career builder i must say.

as for the boyfriend potentials...i am just not interested. i finally have gotten to enjoy myself for once in forever...and i like it. not to mention i just do not have the strength to give an iota of 'give a damn' at the moment. i know that all this will come in time.

i have once again considered grad school. this time it is a master's in elementary education. grad school is expensive. however, the idea of quitting my job, waiting tables, and using my savings to pay for school is sounding inticing at the moment. teachers actually make good money these days. 40-45 grand a year, excellent benefits, summers off = the shit.

i am going to seriously look over my budget and savings and give this some serious thought.

until then i am back to my workout routine and enjoying every moment of my life and time with family. our minutes are precious and i am trying to slow down enough to enjoy what God has handed me right now.