Apartment Search = Soul Search

I scoped out the perspective apartment today. The monthly rent is still outrageous…just as I suspected. May I share the the monthly rent is $725 (rent only) for a single bedroom apartment. I’m sorry, but that is just a bummer. I was thinking that I would show up and grab a steal of $100 a month or something. Kind of like you take a look in the fridge…close the door…and open and look again because you think food will magically appear a second time around! It is just very hard for me to want to spend that type of payment on an apartment. It is not an investment at all. I could almost buy a house. I may just have to stay put, and really, I don’t think that I will ever want to spend that much on an apartment.

I got myself into this and got pumped up for no reason. I am just really unhappy about where I am right now. I really don’t know what I need to do. I really don’t. The only word to describe how I feel (even outside the apartment hunt) is FRUSTRATED. In every aspect there is to the way my life is right now. I am lucky and blessed on one hand, but stuck in the biggest rut of quick sand on the other. No one can answer the questions I have about what I should do next. It is only up to me to do what I want. But I just do not have the resources or the courage to do it.

Where and how can I get the answers? Where can I get the resources? I thought I was doing everything right…

The question I have to ask myself is “What am I going to do about it? I don’t know because I do not even know where to begin!

I need spring to bring some ‘fun-ness’ into my life right now. Tomorrow will be another day!

*Pouty Face*