Tuesday's are my least fav day of the week!

I haven't had any energy this week to save my life. I don't know what could be going on. I think it may have to do with me not working out and me not eating healthy foods. So yesterday and today i have came home, and plopped down on the couch in front of the tube. i couldn't hold my eyes open yesterday but am better today. i think i have just been packing my days a little too intense. just busy. which is good...but exhausing at the same time. hey, i have finally sat down to post what has been going on FINALLY :)

we finished Jamie's mom's home makeover and it looked awesome. she totally loved it...it was a lot of hard work, but in the end was AWESOME. unfortunatly, i don't have any pics to post. but believe me, it was SO MUCH BETTER!

i have been working like a mexican and need a vacation. whether it be sitting at home in my pjs and sleeping in. actually, that's what i want to do. i think i am going to put in for some vaca days tomorrow. oh, and joanna...i would LOVE to come to the beach for kelsie's birthday!!! for sure!

i must get off this thing before my eyes cross! i have been looking at a computer screen ALL DAY LONG!

Return from HuntsVegas

huntsville was a much needed get away. we ate a the jazz factory where we listened to a jazz band and chowed down. the food was splendid. i ate a ribeye with sides of mashed potatoes and green beans. saturday we we to NASA and it was just as cool as i remember as a child. they added the davison center where they have a true-life replica of the Saturn V and lemme tell ya...it is GARganTUOUS! too cool. then of course, we watch Kung Fu Panda in the IMAX theatre which was too cute for words. i made my way home today, cleaned the kitcen and checked all my online 'spaces'.

tomorrow is my birthday. i remember when 24 was old....now it is here and i feel the same as always. it is amazing how fast time goes by.

i took a few pics this weekend and i am going to put them up on myspace. it takes entirely too long to upload pics to blogger for some reason.

mom and dad really appreciated that i was able to visit this Father's Day and it was truly a nice experience.

i would love to go back. Huntsvegas is SOOO much nicer than the 'Salty Ham.' it is clean, nice, and not dangerous as it is here. i sometimes wish that i could move and start my life there but here is what i know. although i don't have many strings here...it is just comfortable and i don't think i really want to start from scratch.

i must get ready for yet another week.....blah.

random updates for a random time

i am going to huntsvegas tomorrow for a fun weekend away from here! i am excited to see NASA :) and go out on the town!

everyone has been sick with walking pneumonia and i have been a complete germaphobe for the last few days. pray that i don't...i can't aford it!

i've got to get serious again with my finances. i am spending money out of control. i got a letter from the bank the other day with an overdraft fee....i didn't even know that i had overdrawn my account! THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED! i guess i have just went crazy here lately. it's time to start stocking money away again. i would love to pay off my bills so i can finally move on with my life. until then...i will just be chilling i guess.

work sucks. i hate it. i want to stay at home (don't everybody). i have been torn between switching jobs...and staying. i have honestly thought about it and am thinking about sticking with it a little longer. i do love what we do and what we stand for. i have an awesome postition right now to actually help on a lot of different levels. i thought today that i would really be letting a lot of people down if i just up and walked away. plus i am going to Maine next month for work and i am stoked. they already have the ticket (in my name and it can't be transferred) so i think i am just going to be content.

i will be up for my anual review next week. i have heard it sux just because the raise is not substantial and i don't even think covers the cost of living from last year to this year. i think that is happening to just about everybody though...not just my company. i am still going to grin and bear it. bring it on. some is better than none afterall.

ahhhhh....friday is just around the corner. i will have a little break and it is much needed. after that it is on like a chicken bone! it's summer and i am ready to have some fun.

"Hate"

H stands for the ex's name and for the word hate. no, i am not saying i hate the ex....what i am saying is i should have known better. let me take you back to the beginning....



as i sit outside my raggedy college apartment i sit by this man that i just met one week before at H (o)(o) ters over a few underaged beers. we clicked immediatly while telling jokes from across the table. he proceeds to sit by me and flirt and what not. i was not interested...at all. however, i felt it a good idea to throw a party upon my return to said raggedy apartment. it is way past bedtime and as i shuffle through some CD's i hear the words 'come here' out of the ex's mouth. i go because i know that i wanted some sugar. within mere seconds we are making out intensly...and so much that we knock a bakers rack onto the floor. "AH...the college days" as i exhale and slobber is dripping down my chin. he proceeds to fearlessly make down the bed as i sternly confirm that we shall do nothing more than make out. he agrees after a few attemps to change my mind. as we make out the tequila shots start making the room spin. a minute passes...i stop mid make out session...look him in the eye...and ask him his last name. we discuss the tattoos we have...and we are back at it.



2 weeks pass and i ignore all calls and all contact. until i run into him at the local margarita night hang out. i hear a deep voice that says "what's up 'no talk'." i giggle and start chugging my medium blue margarita. later to find myself agreeing to go out on a date with this random guy who has one of the worst reputations in the area. time passes, he falls in 'like' with me, and of course the 'conversation' comes up.



we are sitting on the steps outside the apartment...i look at his left arm which has "hate" deeply carved and scarred on his arm. this was due to his pre-teen feelings about his mom and dads divorce (when he was 3) in which he decided to hate his mother then aparently.



"do you like me?" he said. my response of "i think your funny" wasn't enough. "no, do you like me?" "I need to know" again..."i....think....your....funny!" is my answer. a few weeks pass....i had changed my mind and agreed to being his "girlfriend" the night before the fall semester begins....



i take no note at the time that he has cheated on every girlfriend he ever had.....he had promised not to ever do drugs again if i agreed to us having a relationship....he is wild and out of control and i must be the girl that will change his life and be that "special" person. i tell myself that his past psychiatrist appointments had did him well and he is a changed man. he loves me dearly and would literally do anything in this world to be with me.



now that it is over and typed onto this four sided post box i realize that at the time i did not care. i then fell for him, loved him, sacraficed for him....and it was in vein. how then, can i have only shed 6 tears for this man that i have been with for so long and wanted a future with?



the answer? i realize that i didn't care about a relationship at the time....i became confortable and hopeful just because i am at the place in my life when i was ready to move forward. unfortunatly not with him. he has 2 seperate lives. one that was with me and then one on his on time. one that he knew i would not approve of so he hid it all. and i was in denial and didn't want to know the truth.



well, truth has settled and i am over this. i have learned not to sabatoge my life and my standards just for the sheer hell of it. it will get you nowhere in life....



now he has decided to block me from his facebook and myspace so he can hide what he is doing. i know why. so when he calls and wants to hang out i will then think he is just sitting in his room crying over the loss of the 'best damn thing that could have ever happened to him." get real. i may have been/played stupid in the past but i am not. don't try to pull a sly move. of course my friend asked if i had seen his facebook profile and i hadn't since he had me blocked. he has aparently found a scandal and she has posted a few pics of them up on his site. is she cute you ask? if you think that being cross-eyed with large, long pointy teeth is cute. and i am not saying this out of jealousy...i am saying this out of the honest truth.

it's ok....i went out with some of my girlfriends in montevallo. we meet up with her ex (who is one of the ex's best friends). he didn't know we broke up...and he called the ex and said "oh my gosh...your girlfriend is out at the bars where are you????" to his surprise the ex told him we aren't together anymore :)

so i had a blast, met a hot guy, and we made out :) so now that always makes things better. sound like the above story could start over.....lol..... i don't think so.......

ode to tuesday

tonight was Tori's Mary Kay facial party. Her name was found on a bridal registry...so we decided "what the heck" and invited the rep over for some fun. I bought my first MK product....mineral wear (beige 1) and it is fantablous. I am so excited to wear it tomorrow. my only concern is that it may not last all day - but only time will tell! exciting!

i almost had a date last night. well not an "official" date, but the brother of a new friend wants to meet me. i was a pansy and a grandma and had to cancel. it would have been too late for a work night and plus just a little much to handle right now. we shall see. maybe a weekend venture is on the horizon.

H and I met for lunch today! i initated because i had to get an ipod charger back from him for my dad. it was nice. we had small talk, a quick "church hug" and parted ways.

my new fav snack is butter & cinnamon popcorn. it is out of this world. only 50 calories a bag and a sweet snack for any craving.

jamie and i are doing a "while you were out" mini series for her mom while she is out of town. her mom works in honduras training new folks 3 weeks out of the month. we are going to totally re-do and re-paint her bedroom. she will be excited. she has never even had her room painted so i thinkthis will be a good surprise.

jamie, tori, and i literally tore out her mom's standing shower in her bathroom. it randomly has a tub/shower and across the way a standing shower that her mom had mentioned she wants to utilize storage in that area. no one has taken the initiatve to do anything for years....so leave it to us! we snatched, tore, unscred, scraped and the like. it is now in pieces on her front porch. :) now we have to find out a way to fix it! her bathrom will be made over too. i will try to take some pics because this is going to be great!